Another Friday is here, and all I can think about is all I have to do. Remember the "Healthy Body Image" post yesterday. Well, I feel like I've taken a 180 today. I'm not perfect!
I feel very guilty about bingeing on Pepperidge Farm cookies (plus a giant, gooey chocolate chip cookie earlier), not exercising, and sleeping late the next morning (today) so I couldn't squeeze a workout in the morning. I hate when I can't control my temptations (sleeping in, napping at 5, bingeing on cookies). Seems like this is always what I resort back to; why do I constantly feel like I'm fighting it? Some days, I feel soooo good, and others, I feel totally helpless.
Today, someone brought ice cream cake--that was my lunch--way to ruin a new day. I had a total blood sugar crash later on. Ugh. I'm trying really hard to make each day a new day and not feel like I'm playing catch-up all the time. You can't make up for lost time, and it drives me crazy anyway. So I try to forget the slow days and take each day as a new day. But it's hard. Everything is such a battle for me. I'm tempted to do multiple workouts today. I can never be satisfied with just one good one. I always want to weight-lift, run, and then swim--in the same day.
Part of it is the whole triathlon-training thing. I guess I need to pull back and be consistent. Doing 1 good workout is better than doing 3 crappy ones. Also, I feel totally overwhelmed with a bunch but if it's just 1, I can look forward to it.
I'm afraid that if I don't spell everything out and just go with the flow, I'll give in to all these terrible temptations and become this huge, apathetic, lazy blob. I rely on this fear to drive me and motivate me. This fear partially explains why I get so much accomplished.
Just goes to show that even though I know in my head how I want to view life and myself, sometimes I can't control my emotions. Anyway, I really want to exercise tonight, but I'm stuck in lab right now. I have to do these experiments with massive amounts of radioactivity, and it freaks me out. And of course, I'm getting very exciting results, which means I have to keep doing these painful, tortuous experiments. I'm trying to slam a lot of coffee to ward off the nap I feel coming on.
4 comments:
When I get my 6 cheeseburgers, I always remember to get a Diet Pepsi, then that counts. LOL no j/k I don't do anything diet.
But I'm glad you tore into those Pepperage Farm Cookies. That makes me want some right now. Then all I got to do is ride my bike to work and its gone. The pro's of being a 23 year old male.
WOW, you were in lab that late last Friday? I'm sorry Rachel, I wish I could have kept you company! The Weezer show was great. I guess I should hold back on making brownies for lab huh? Let me know when would be a good time for you. I wanna help out with your exercise goals!
Hmmm, I love me some sugar free fudgesicles. They are 40 calories. A normal fudgecicle is around 120 calories. Sometimes, I will have 3-4 in a day, because, its the same as having 1 bad one! lol! We all have our moments, and tomorrow is another day!
It is amazing how well you feel when you eat right and exercise in a day. Too bad it can't be easier.
I guess no one's perfect. Oh, well. There's always the next day.
Rita--Glad you had fun at the concert! I'd love to have an exercise buddy. Let me know what you want to do.
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