Saturday, June 11, 2005

Feel like crap

Have been pretty depressed reason for no real good reason. Stuck doing all sorts of things I don't want to do. My routine is shot to shit. Again. I don't get to do anything I want to do and I don't have time to do the things I need to do. And even if I did, I would still feel like curling up on the sofa and crying, which really freaks out Jason and the bunnies. I hate chemicals. I have no control.

4 comments:

Rachel said...

Thank you so much for your kind words. They do make me feel better. I know that I overwhelm myself. I know I pile on and pile on and pile on. I do the impossible for awhile, and then, my mind rebels, and forces me to rest. This culminates in crying on the couch. I know what causes it, and I've been trying to establish a routine to prevent this. However, recently, there is so much pressure to get more and more done, and I feel completely out of balance. I'm going at a speed I can't sustain. I'm going to have to slow down and put myself into a more structured and balanced routine. Oh, and I had dropped my dosage of Lexapro down a few weeks ago, thinking I could handle it on the lower dose. Obviously not. I went back to the higher dose this morning. However, I hate how my rational brain knows exactly what's going on, yet my emotional brain doesn't give a shit. Thanks for your words of encouragement.

Kevin Yates said...

I am sorry that you had a crappy weekend. crashing from being overcomitted and feeling out of control sucks...I have been there. actually I was just there myself a couple of weeks ago.

I hope things are better for you now. I will pray for you this week.

Rachel said...

No, I still feel like crap today. Headache that won't go away. Low energy, low mood. I think I sprained my right hand and I appear to be bruising very easily.

Fizzgig said...

I hate when you get a routine set, and something messes with it. I am not your typical Saggitarius in that respect. I like to plan. I get upset when I cant do the things I plan to also.
Their your feelings, and you are entitled to feel them, that is really all you can do. It's good every once in a while to get it all out. Sorry you were feeling bad!! It makes you stop and think, you are only human. Sometimes getting back in touch with your feelings is all you need to get back on track! I hope you feel better soon!
Thank you for the kind words on the passing of my little Bitsy. You, having bunnies, understand their more than animals that are kept in cages, their part of the family, with their own little personalities.